Thursday, February 19, 2009

I never thought that even writing a blog for the first time can make ur heart beat fast.But this is the case and it is the feeling I am having.This makes me wonder why it happens that these first time affairs are always sought of exciting and difficult to handle.May be its the first time talking to a girl, meeting a stranger, meeting ur boss at office, that first day at college, first time u are on stage to act, first song u try to sing before knowing that u can not sing, first time u r even posting a reply to some blog.

The best thing I am feeling in writing a blog is that I am asking a question to myself which is not a frequent practice with me and more importantly I am getting a answer from inside which is the only source for all answers and even more importantly I am feeling free to bring out that answer.And now I am even loosing my nervousness.Why? May be I am thinking about my question and my answer. Moments ago I was thinking what other people will think about what I am writing. So is this the answer to the first question which came in my mind about my uneasiness.Yes it is.It is only when I am thinking about others feelings which will created as a reflection of my feelings I feel nervous.And it all goes when I let myself flow freely without any expectation. So this first time affair has given me something.May be I will be able to retain this learning because these first time affairs always happen and I always feel the way I was feeling in the beginning.

This is a good sign.Hope this new journey will unfold a lot..................